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assalamualaikum readers, wherever you are :) wouldn't it be cool if I know who is reading my blog right now? *laugh* okay, I feel like a crazymadgirl laughing alone. okay, okay. enough.

it feels funny - scrolling down through his profile page *okay, call me stalker? Idontcare. everything comes up, about me and him. somehow, part of me wanting him but the other part asking me to let him go. weird huh? I feel like an idiot fighting for something for I doubt myself, and I feel like a dumb waiting for him who just don't even how it hurts. and I am stupid for having a thought - him to be mine. idiot much? yeah right. pathetic? guess I am.

for now, I can't figure out - am I on the right track? or am I walking too fast? Is this right? am I doing the damn right thing? selfish? Am I? - pathetic wanting him to be mine while him - not knowing anything. He just don't have any idea. Do he? *sigh. I am a good adviser to someone, *youknowho. but when it comes to me, my own problem, I couldn't even make a choice. I couldn't make any decision. it's pathetic. *pathetic, pathetic.

maybe I should wait? or should I just end this? or should I erase them? or should I keep it?